Torn Between

My heart beats faster than my mind,

A racing pulse, a constant bind,

A tug-of-war that never ends,

Between the places I can't defend.

I fear abandonment, yet crave the touch,

The warmth of love, but fear too much—

A fragile thread that pulls apart,

Every whisper breaks my heart.

Surrounded by faces, yet still alone,

A quiet ache within my bones,

I scream inside, but no one hears,

Trapped in a world of silent tears.

My thoughts betray me, twist and churn,

A constant fire I can't discern,

Suicide whispers, soft but clear,

A promise of peace, a fleeting cheer.

But still I fight, though weary, drained,

Trying to breathe, despite the pain,

I long for understanding's light,

A hand to guide me through the night.

I wish they'd see what’s deep inside,

The fragile mind I cannot hide,

Torn between what’s real and what I feel—

A battle fought with no appeal.

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